Well i'm back at writing this again so nowadays i'm too much interested in chess and i'm spending too much time playing and improving my game, my current rating is 1016 i wanna reach 1100 soon but it will be more difficult after that so i should imrpove my playing skills instead of focusing on the rating and judging people with their rating I am also doing the rock paper scissor javascript project now and I have wrote some code but i have no idea why it's not working and fixing it would take a lot of time i hope i can learn new things with this also college is closed now due to heat wave for 1 week so i have much more free time now but i have to use this time instead of wasting it also i am reading the book on social skills and trying to implement it in every conversation / situation but i won't be able to try it in college but i hope i can get better till the time college reopens..

Well I went to college today after many days ( 2 i guess ) i think i am doing much better socially now and i'd like to improve it more and also i feel confident now. It was not really a much happening day i just did 1 practical class and came back home after that slept in the afternoon and then started watching chess and after that did some dsa and read books, i'm just writing this to make a habit of journaling that's it so that i dont miss to write on an actual happening day, also in 10 days we have our fest so let's see how it goes (socially) lmao

It was a normal day but a productive one i started learning javascript and completed 2 lectures of odin project in morning.Then went to college and did the english lab and collected swags of an event which was held in november after that we took the gorup photo of our class although it felt retarded and nobody was cooperating but it would feel good when we'll look at the pictures after 2-3 years then i was on my way home alognwith 2 other classmates they wwhere talking about some 20k job and javascript and flexing each other's project and i was just looking at them although i felt a bit sad that i don't know these stuff and that i'm lagging behind these people but this also gives me the motivation to work hard more and focus on myself, i've also decided to read more books let's see how much can i do

A day before christmas eve met some of my old friends and my childhood crush was there too we had some amazing conversations and spent a good time together and I have a feeling that I still like her but being in a relationship with her is difficult maybe because of our financial differences and location diff I heard her telling that she was single but has a crush on someone and can date him next year although i am jealous but i feel helpless well my main goal right now is to move out of kokata and get a good job in her city so i can see her daily and maybe start dating her.. Also it feels so good to meet old friends like they won;t judge you and just talk about old times and enjoy together .I'm looking forward to meet them next year too and hang out with them it feels good man and is like a therapy but the thought of moving out and geeting a job is eating my brain maybe i'll be okay in 2 3 days .

The world cup comes every 4 years so I am writing this to see and experience where i was 4 years ago and where i'll be 4 years later well right now I am doing my undergrad and just have a handful of friends with whom I actually like to spend time also it sucks when some of your friends just relocate to other city and you cannot meet them anytime you want you have to wait for their vacations to start or things like that well that's how life is you won't value someone when they're close to you but you'll realize their value when they're gone

4 years ago it was 2018 i was in class 8 or 9 iirc and had no plans career wise and just enjoyed playing pubg with my friends back then i wanted to be an esports athelete but hobbies fade away with time in my case i think soo lmao

4 years later I am doing my undergrad and I think i am more focused career wise cause I want to move out of my city/country also I am looking forward to earn some money to help my mom to pay college fees, meeting and sharing memories with old friends also this year was tough one for me first i didn't get good marks in boards and then i just lost my father and didn't share it to anyone i don't even know when will i do it also right know i am just desperate in getting into a relationship and loose focus from my career idk why but my brain just cant stop thinking about relationships ..maybe teenage problem

It will be 2026 after 4 years I would like to see myself upskilled and would like to keepy my close friends close to myself ( khass kar khaas logo ko rakho pass apne) I would like to be in a healthy relationship with my crush (sapne) i'll also like to have a good financial literacy and save and invest for a safe future also remeber the 6 month saving account rule let's see where I stand after 4 years .. to the 21YO me hope you are fine and healthy and doing well in life

well it was a good day today also i learnt one thing that everybody is alone and they're looking for friends some have already found some friends and others are still in the process well I want to be alone sometimes but also I want to enjoy sometimes people always call me or ask for help when they are in trouble or nobody is helping them or it's just for their advantage nobody wants to share their happiness with a unknown guy like me .. also i have to control my music addiction it's the thing I waste my all time on if i get rid of music addiction i can definitely do better .. that's it for today aslo the world cup has started let's see how my life will be till next world cup

below average day woke up completed previous days summary and hoped that i would meet new people today but nothing new happened well that's how life is you shouldn't expect it to be good i got some assignments and i have no idea how I'll be completing em also i will be turning 18 in 2 or 3 days so let's see how life after 18 is cuz I've heard that ot only goes downhill from here anyway then i went to college made the local train pass went to college and just sat on my seat and attended the boring lectures for 2 hour and then just came back home .. I won't say it boring but it's like it's not interesting and i think other people are enjoying their college life while I'm not well it's just 2 months that's passed let's see how the rest of the time go also i completed the physics manual of previous day and today.. tried to focus on learning new things but i am addicted to gta rp and music if i can get rid of those 2 things then i can save much more time and be productive so i have to work on myself also getting back control of life is going pretty good but everything is happening but I can't control my life lmfao

Well it was a good day (for me) I woke up early in the morning completed some assignment(i guess) i can;'t remeber then went to college made the railway pass and then socialized with some people and talked to her too . After that we had mechanical workshop and everyone from the group talked to each other it was fun. Then i came home and did cs50 week 6(not completed) and found the conclusion for newton's ring experiment and learnt how to make graphs